Sometimes I realize I have too little faith.
Three weeks ago I just thought I had set my expectations too high.
The economy is too bad. People have many other choices for where they'll give. You guys are all tired of hearing about the orphanage and the need and you have moved onto other things. The $5000 we have already raised is a lot. Let's just be thankful for what we have and try something else.This is what was running through my head.
I don't know why I always forget that this isn't really my project after all. I always get into the trap of believing that I'm the one doing this, and that it's all limited by my power.
If that were the case most of what has happened the past 3 years wouldn't have happened at all.
That Sunday at church 2 weeks ago when I was listening for what to spend the week praying for the first thing running through my mind was, "We still need $5000 dollars, I'm out of ideas, I don't know what else to do to raise that money. That's what I should pray about."
But that wasn't what I felt that God wanted me to pray about. It was all off you. (Which, by the way, was my favorite blogging experiment ever because I got to know some of you so much better, and I may need to make it a regular monthly practice.)
So I prayed for you guys. Which isn't to say that I didn't pray about the money we still needed to raise, but it's not what I used my early morning time for. The kids and I mentioned it in our start of the school day prayer time.
(We mentioned a bunch of other silly things, like flower girl dresses for Aaron's brother's wedding on our reduced budget that were supplied too. It's been a good week for prayer.)
Anyway, all this to say that donations just kept coming in, though I was doing less to try and help them than I had before. All those pesky responsibilities like teaching my children and feeding them and maybe, sort of, cleaning up around here once in a while kept interfering.
I should learn to trust more.
Today I totaled it all, everything that has come in the past week, plus everything from before.
You might want to sit down for this.
What felt impossible a few weeks ago has happened and it's thanks to all of you. You did it. You told our story. You gave what you could. You just built an orphanage you guys!
|This is the land we will build it on.|
My favorite part this week was an email that one of you sent me that had this phrase "I am beginning to feel "involved"... wanting the best for these precious souls."
That means so much to me. Because you are involved. You are the reason this is working. I could never do this by myself. But together... now that's powerful.
I'm overwhelmed and I don't know truly how to convey the relief, the gratitude, the feeling of being swept along in a tide of something that started so small and is now grown beyond anything I could imagine at the time and is bigger now than any of us.
Though it feels very inadequate the only words I have are thank-you. Thank you so very much.
You are saving lives.
ps. You could still enter to win the iPod or other prizes until midnight tonight if you want to. :)