The past 3 years have been witness to a slow forgetting of who I am. Or maybe more accurately, who I wanted to be, and what I knew about how to get there. I used to write, here, about the stories we tell ourselves. How our narrative shapes our experience […]
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Happy New Year From Thailand!!!
We were privileged to celebrate the New Year with the children at the nearby Grace Home, run by our good friends at Compassio. They had Mukake, Thai BBQ, and movies and sugar so all the kids had a lot of fun. (Some of the sugar was our fault because we […]
Read MoreConfessions of Recovering Control Freak
Want to know how to make me fall apart? Give me a bunch of things I can’t do all by myself, that have to be done in a set amount of time, thereby forcing me to ask other people for help, and rely on them and work around their schedules, […]
Read MoreWhen Reality Doesn’t Conform to Expectations
The other night Bam Bam woke up in a mood. You know the kind. He’s not hungry, he’s not thirsty, he doesn’t want to any hugs or kisses he just wants something inane, that only makes sense to his little sleep addled brain. In this case he wanted me to […]
Read MoreBe Strong and Courageous
If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the years it’s that strong isn’t something you feel, strong is what you do. I’ve had people accuse me of being strong all my life (when they are being kind, there have been worse things said), and I’ve often been offended by it […]
Read MoreGratitude is a Choice
I’ve been thinking about habits lately, and the power they have in our lives. There’s a woman I know who has suffered a lot in her life, and is not in an ideal place, for her, right now. She doesn’t understand why her life is at the point it is […]
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To help me remember. It’s almost healed. all content © Carrien Blue
Read MoreFor When You Feel Powerless
A friend’s daughter spent the last several weeks in the hospital because she told her mom she was thinking about how to kill herself. She is a sweet, bright, beautiful girl and that she is able to believe that the world would be better without her in it just kills […]
Read MoreThe Habit of Misery
“Everyone feels disappointed sometimes,” I tell her. “Everyone feels sad because something didn’t go the way they hoped it would from time to time. But to spend hours crying and finding the very worst thing in every second to complain about, that’s a choice.” “I care about your feelings, and […]
Read MoreOne Thousand Gifts-The Gift of Work.
It’s Monday. There is always so much work to do on Monday. The house is trashed after a weekend of being away more than at home, and it seems so much harder for the kids to get into the school routine on a Monday. That’s on top of all the […]
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