The I’m not perfect club

For my daddy

Happy Birthday. Thank-you for always being a good dad to me, even when I couldn’t see it, and didn’t thank-you. Thanks for not being in a hurry when I you were tucking me in at night when I was little, and taking the time to talk and answer all of […]

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Learning to be Content

One of the hardest things about the past month was dealing, not only with the loss of a baby, but with the truth that we aren’t going to try and have another one again any time soon. That was perhaps much harder than the initial loss. Yet, as Aaron reminded […]

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Confessions

“Mama. Mama. Mama,” she calls, “Just one more thing.” My hand hovers on the doorknob, poised for escape. On the other side of that door is sweet relief that I made it through another day, quiet, and time to myself, time to get things done. I am almost free, but […]

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Conversation with my MIL

Sunday. her: I read your blog last night, it was really very sweet. You do sound like the perfect mother on there though. me: laughter. Yeah I have wonderful thoughts on motherhood on occasion. The execution on the other hand… not so perfect. (Let’s just say we both know better.) […]

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Fear of Failure

I was thinking last night, as I put the finishing touches on the daily schedule that I hope we can stick to this school year, about how it used to embarrass me to be seen trying anything new. It still does sometimes actually. I would rather Aaron believe that I […]

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On Self Discipline

I lack self discipline. I do. It’s something I have always failed at. I’m good at being busy, but I am poor at disciplining myself to make the most of the time and resources I have and put in consistent effort day in and day out. It’s not because I […]

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1000 Gifts-Week 17

Sometimes it really hard to remember to be thankful. One or two things that are hard to deal with will shout so loudly that they can drown out all the other voices. Like a child who has been told no to another ice cream after a long day packed with […]

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Constant State of Flux

I keep saying that we’re going to move to Thailand this year. Am I boring you yet? Well, we are, just not yet. I just extended our lease again, this time until the end of May, and that in itself may not be enough time. There are a few things […]

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Time to look in the mirror

I actually started writing this yesterday and didn’t finish. This morning the GH woke up and made us all breakfast, since Fridays are his day off. This morning at 6 am I woke to the sound of a little voice yelling, “Mommy, I peed my bed.” I don’t know if […]

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1000 Gifts Friday-Week 11

Sometimes I find myself wondering around in a bitter funk. It’s characterized by the question, “Why bother?” and usually is sparked by how quickly things are undone, how much energy it takes to push myself and my family toward routines and habits that are healthy and productive, and how tired […]

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